I have a tendency to think of how I will react to certain life events before they happen. For instance, when I was in elementary school, I already worried about college. I had visited my siblings’ college campus and remember thinking how big it was. I knew I’d get lost.

But in the blink of eye, I started college, then I graduated. It wasn’t nearly as scary as my 8-year-old thought.

Today I had one of those days, kind of. It’s like in a matter of nano-seconds, my life changed. It’s been nearly 12 hours, and I’m still trying to process it all. Imagine your life was going down one path, then BAM! You’re now on another track.

And this is a path I’ve never even studied. There is so much to learn. It’s like my world has turned upside down. I’m happy, sad, scared.

Perhaps shock is what I’m feeling. I guess I have never been shocked like this ever in my life.

My view on things has to change, I think. Wow. I need to pinch myself.